rain

I know sometimes it's gunna rain
and I just have to hold out for the sun to shine
but some days I feel like I'm living in a rainforest
and the suns never gunna come
this is it for me
I can't run
I can't hide
it follows me where ever I go
bad luck like a cloud over my head
following me around
it rains

mother mother

mother mother
can you hear me
do you notice me at all
I want to be your precious girl
but do you even know my biggest fear
and what I hate most of all
I may be your daughter
but you don't know me at all
mother mother
do you want to know th saddest part of all
there is no memory I share with you
just an empty book at th back of the library
tittled 'me and you'
there is still time to fill it
so mother mother
let me know when I become your baby girl

the world spins
it's all a blur
the more I take
the more I fall
lying on the ground
with the blood dripping
and my head thumping
I start to wonder
How I got so low

you're the problem
and the solution

<3

the minutes feel like hours
and the hours feel like days
you've been gone for so long
and you wont return the same
but neither am I
so what will we be
will it be enough that I would lie for you
die for you
live and breathe for you
If I had something
I would give it all up
but I have nothing but you
and nothing to give but love
which has been stored in a heart shaped box
as I wait for your return
as I wait for my world

can you not see it

I cry in silence
can you not see my tears
see the sadness in my eyes
behind the smile I plaster on
can you not see it
everytime I pick myself up
after I fall to the ground
when really I want to give up
and lie down
can you not see my pain
see the hunger for happiness
can you not see it
behind this act of mine

bunch of words

a bunch of words
swirling in my head
a bunch of words
splattered on a page
a bunch of words
that came from my heart

lovehatehero

you fall in love
and become her hero
but then the hate has to fit in
now your just her lovehatehero

words

a four letter word
with a mind of it's own
used innappropriately
it can destroy you
or me.

a three letter word
with a mind of it's own
used with its meaning
it can destroy you
or me.

escape

I want an escape
but I'm bound in this rope
getting tighter and tighter
I'm struggling to breathe
need to be free
need to get up high
'cos I can't look down from here
down on this world
to see where I went wrong
destroy the torture
then run from it all
I need my escape
before I can no longer breathe

the meaning of life
the meaning of death
do you have to live to die
do you have to die to live

world war 3

yelling and screaming
as if it was world war 3
I may be hard work
and trouble at times
but I'm trying my hardest to succeed
you don't want to help
does that mean you want to fight
'cos I don't but I will
if it means you'll understand me
but I've had enough
as my anger builds
I'm giving up on it all

-

the only way out
is through what I've been running from
in a state of confusion
I'm on th easy road down
needing to turn around
back up hill
scared
will my fears hold me back
from facing what I ran from

mistake

It's my beautiful Mistake
that holds me hostage
a never failing mistake
unlike you

new chapter

I can't start fresh
and erase the past
but I can write a new chapter
this time with you in it
'cos God it was only you who cared
that I was living in fear
becoming everything I'm not
losing all hope
forgetting my morals
and turning my back on you
hiding away
I broke down
tore myself apart
I scarred
but no guy
no girl
no object
compares to the love you pour out
th love you have
even when I break your heart
and th heavens weep
but I'm trying to fix it
as I write a new chapter
to the story of my life

forgive

to love th one you hate
to need them so
to try to forgive
but can't bring yourself to do so
it hurts not knowing what to feel
not knowing if you care
being scared of you is th worst part of it all
I wish I could bring myself to forgive you

he she mix up

not sure what to do
do I take th plunge
and risk it all
you're everything I wanted
and everything I needed
but it's a he-she mix up
in our narrow minded world.

taking him for granted

if you cried his tears
your face would be under a bed of mascara
your eyes swollen red
taking him for ganted
you said a silent prayer
watching him fall to your thrown
you spat at his feet
but girl you're foolish and blind
he's one of a kind
wishing and waiting to be your knight.

misunderstood angel

she's th mystery at th back of th class
that no one will fully understand
she wants to let you in but she's too scared
living in fear
she's scared to let you in of fear to be alone
she wants you to be there
to break down that wall
she wants you to fully understand
but she's just a beautiful disastor
that girl.
a misunderstood angel hiding away from dark.

come back and stay

they say absence makes th heart grow fonder
and I guess it's true
because baby I am in love with you
but what happens when you find another girl
when I'm no longer your world. .
when will I see you
just to have you go again
I wish it never had to fade
I live for your calls
and smile by th mention of your name.
I'm hanging out for that day
you come back and stay.

don't love.

don't try to make me into your perfect girl
because you'll never be my world.
I don't care no more
let me live my life
i want to be gone
need to be done
because you only fog up my rear mirror
unable to see.
it's a car crash waiting to happen
because I don't love you like I should
and you don't love me like I wish.

lovestruck fool

it's a love game
but I'll never be your girl
only a tool in your broken world
and maybe that makes me a fool
maybe it isn't right
but your what I need
as I fall for you.
and I guess maybe it's true
maybe I am a lovestruck fool.
if only I could be your world

found myself.

you can say what you want
you can tell me I'm wrong
but I no longer care
'cos I know it's a long way down
but I'll jump by myself
'cos I'm gunna find out on my own
and atleast I'll have a story to tell
of when I found myself
because your not who I want to be.