somebody else

I want to be somebody else
when all you do is judge
I can't do anything right
and I'm getting tired of myself.
arguing, fighting.
it's me myself and I
th three of us alone in this world
wishing upon a shooting star to be somebody else.

waste of song

I sit here alone
with a pad and a pen
guitar at my feet
lyrics come into my head
but your a waste of song
a waste of space
a waste of time
no place for you here
so get out now
get outta my head
get far away from here

get out now
get outta my head
i don't love you dear
'cos all you did is play me
you played me for a fool
now your a waste of song

you were my night
my day, my world
my everything and more
but you went and blew it all
I lost all hope in you
now your a waste of song
I once cared about you
but never again will I dear
our friendship died out long ago
along with this tear
now your just a waste of song

no longer care

as we sit here
I reminise on th old days
baby I cared
why must you tear apart my heart
but there's no light at th end of th tunnel
just a brige I'm gunna burn
'cos you hurt me
but babe I don't hate you
I just no longer care
you left without a warning
I went searching
you then came out to say hello
to leave again
so now I no longer care
so baby, now I'm gone
don't come around to say hello
I've said my goodbyes
you've said yours
and now I just no longer care

everyone knows, i'm not over you

walking along
on a crazy summer night
thinking of when it was me and you
'cos everyone knows,
I'm not over you
singing along to 'sick little love song'
how i miss youu.
baby I still shed a tear
every once in a while
but still i walk on by
straight past you
no more hugs,
no more hellos
but everyone knows,
I'm not over you.
I feel used and abused
broken in two
'cos you left me here
alone with a tear
as you walked away
a scar tore my heart
I fell apart
now everyone knows,
I'm not over you

she's a beautiful disastor
who stopped running
and let herself be th prey
because as each abuse was hurled
her self confidence began to fall
now labelled th slut
she hates who she's become
all she ever wanted
was to feel loved

slipping and sliding
I fall to th ground
but you wont ever hold me down
because th tables have turned
th jokes on you
guess who's laughing now

your words are printed in my mind
written with a permenant marker.

Confessions

To some invisible is all you will be
so I write these confessions in my blood
with hatred I want you gone
because of you, I live in fear
and cry myself to sleep
her mistakes are not my fault
but yet you take them out on me
so i'm no longer going to lock up my unholy confessions
I want you dead
dreaming of that blade entering your throat
as I watch you in pain
whatch you feel what I felt everytime,
everytime you screamed
everytime you hit
so here are my confessions
of my hatred for you
all I ever wanted was your love
but never have I been good enough
so now I don't care
just leave already
these are my confessions of a broken heart
written with th tears you'll never see me cry

behind your blue eyes

Your long hair
and sparkling blue eyes
your th brightest star in th sky
because there you go, so perfectly
you're th kind of flawless I wish I could be
but behind your blue eyes
there is mistakes
mistakes affecting you
mistakes affecting me
so hatred built
and arguements flared
but since you've been gone
I miss having you near
lets grab ahold of what we share
th world is our oyster
so lets be it's pearl

Coming and going

Coming and going as you please
Doing my head in, till I bleed
you were my first love
and that could never change
but baby don't confuse
you'll loose your own game
'cos coming and going as you please
I'm not sure what to believe
how am I going to be that girl,
that girl who's your world
when your coming and going as you please
coming and going till I bleed
coming and going, baby please
you've lost your own game
so don't confuse me

Broken Home

Falling down
we all lay still
umong th tears
there is fears
because we know this is only th beggining
what is yet to come
It's only time
before this broken home
doesn't exist anymoree

He takes it out on th kids
and can't communicate with her anymore
She doesn't know we exist
and doesn't love us anymore
but this is just th beggining
as us kids fall apart
among this broken home
love doesn't exist anymoree

She's pregnant
and can't cope with her mom
He gets smart all th time
but is scared of his dad
and I don't eat anymore
and only wants a mothers love
but in this broken home
hope doesn't exist anymore

Broken World

It's a broken world we live in
where children cry
and parents fight
we wear other peoples mistakes
and fight other peoples fights
in this broken world
I sit here alonee
having argued with th 'rents
I cry myself to sleep
they can't trust me
so they shut me away
because of them
I don't trust you
so I sit here in darkness
awaiting death

Reality

with a snap of my finger
my perfect world would appear
no more pain, no more tears
just a happy ever after
I'm cinderella with a prince charming
I'm skinny and gorgeous
being loved for who I am

with another snap of my finger
I return to reality
th pain and tears appear
and th happy ever after disappears
I'm th other sister
only dreaming of prince charming
I'm self conscious
and have little friends.

why does reality have to exist

am I gunna die, with fingers down my throat

I dance in a thunderstorm
as tears roll down my face
th acids burning my throat
as my dreams have gone away
am i gunna die
with fingers down my throat
wishing, dreaming and hoping
I can break this habbit of minee
help me, save me, rescue me
take away this pain
I thought I'd be happy knowing I could die
but it's killing me inside

torn in two

what do you do when you get torn in two
having to make a decision you don't know how to make
I'm stuck in th middle of th two of you
do I follow my head
or follow my heart
either way someone gets hurt
and I'm still unsatisfied
do I choose th one I love that will hurt me
or th one I like that will protect me
these tears keep on falling for both of you

Tinted Window

Th act is tiring
and th mask is suffocating
my life is a tinted window
at it's darkest
never allowing you to see in
because I fear
to have you on th inside
you may disappear

In a love story

Captivated by your smile
I'm under your spell
In a love story
where your my world
with your unique charm
you've got me stuck
stuck in a fantasy
stuck on you
Your a mystery still
but it's left me wanting more
without you my life would suck
and darlin'
I wouldn't want to be anyone elses girl
'cos my happiness is here with you

I am gone

I love you
untill my very last breath
but it's come to an end
and th memories flood my mind
as I drown in th love I lost
in th battle of fear
the words goodbye
slip from my cold frozen lips
the curtains are drawn
and with love
I am gone

th road is our open path

Missing you like Crazy
I need you by my side
but as each day goes by
I feel th distance grow
that kiss we shared
when our eyes met
your hand in mine
it all fels so real
I think I love you
with your name printed in my heart
but haven't we been here before
summer loves and computer flings
th open road is our path
I guess this isn't my perfect fantasy
but I'd walk a thousand miles
just to hear you breathe
'cos darling,
I'm in love with youu
lost in this moment of truth
closing my eyes
wishing and dreaming
I need to be near you

holding onto th pictures

Holding onto th pictures
my heart burns
you're trying to undo what I'm holding on to
but as th anger builds
I'm starting to hate you
so just fuck off and leave
I'm not your baby girl
so why can't I live without you
why do I need you
why do I care
when all you did was leave me with a broken heart
and i was only second best
wound up in your lies

this is me

why must we always point th finger
judge, blame, it's all just a game
full of anger,
full of hate
well it hurts.
I'm not perfect
but neither are any of you
I make mistakes
but guess what,
so do each one of you
I'm me, and me may not be how you remember me
or who you wish I would be
but you have to learn to accept it
because with or without you
this is me

together in my head

controlling my thoughts
driving me crazy
I pretty much whip you baby
so what's it gunna take for you to care
what will it take for you to be mine
'cos of all th people in th world
you're th one I want
can we atleast pretend
you can be my boy,
and I'll be your world
happily ever after,
together in my head

your lies

Baby I love you
I don't understand
you crushed me darlin'
you and your bullshit lies
my favourite lie of all
was when you said you loved me
I hope this girl is worth it
baby i really do
because you left me in tears
and are the reason for my scars
and goddammit we're through
if only you could see
and if only you could hear
hear me cry these tears.
see me cut myself
but you've gone away
as my heart lays shattered
so now you've lost me
but darlin'
in th end, it'll be your loss

running

with nothing left to do
I'm rejected and alone
broken up in pieces
wishing to be near you
I'm surrounded by lies
and unspoken truths
families are being destroyed
and tears are making streams
so now all I can do is run,
run away,
running from you,
running untill my heart beats no more

not a fool, just in love

Girl I know your not a fool
your just in love
but stand up for yourself
forget what you feel
and realise what you deserve
'cos is he really gunna be there when you loose it all
will he really catch you, when you fall.
girl, i'm telling you walk today
before he walks from you
your not a fool
your just in love
so quit running in circles
and leave today

crazy for you

I'm just a girl
who's crazy for you
I wish you could see that
when i get paranoid and throw a hissy fit
it's not 'cos i'm a bitch
it's 'cos i'm scared you are gunna realise
there is someone better out there for you
I'm scared another girl
could make you happier than I ever could
and I'm scared one day you'll wake up
and realise this isn't love
and you've wasted all this time on me
but even if it was to come true
I'd always be a girl
who's crazy for you

disappear

look me in th eye
tell me it isn't true
but now I'm broken inside
as you try to make it up to me
I was waiting for that day
that you tried to come around
but now that it's here
I want it to disappear
because all we ever were
is now in th past
can't you see that
thanks to you,
I'm broken inside
So don't tell me youu want me back
don't say you miss me
I'm broken inside
so just disappear

lost behind wors we'll never find

lets spill our guts over coffee
'cos i'm tired of your lies
and baby it's too late
our love has gone away
lost behind words
we'll never find
it was fun while it lasted
but built on lies
so baby
I'm leaving you today
the good times we had
are lost behind words
we'll never find
and I'm blown away
by that smirk on your face
we've wasted so much time
and baby
it's coming to an end
that look on your face
is lost behind words
we'll never find

I'm just a girl

I'm just a girl
harming herself
I'm just a girl
searching for love
I'm just a girl
with lulabys of tears
I'm just a girl haunted by hears
I'm just a girl
holding a sharp blade
I'm just a girl
who drowns in her blood
but most of all
I'm just a girl
that lost all hope in you

Emo Ginga Ninja

Ginga Ninja hanging from a tree
Ginga Ninja on top of that cliff
Ginga Ninja there he weeps
'cos this ginga ninja
and his little cat too
are poor little emos
from beverly hills
so ginga ninja wont you hop down
ginga ninja don't kill your self
but this ginga ninja does not listen
and BANG BANG sounds th gun
but it's alright
'cos as we all know
Ginga Ninjas Have fanta for blood

go ahead and leave

You said you'll always be there
friends till th end
and now I'm falling down
you're walking out on me
my life is a nightmare
and I'm far from perfect
hiding th scars th pain leaves
but now i'm like whatever
go ahead and leave
but don't expect me to be here
when you come running back to me
'cos as people stop caring
th lower down I fall
and soon enough darlin
'I'll be nothing but lost thoughts.

th little girl weeps

Pitter Patter th rain falls
Clip Clap shoes walk
chitter chatter people talk
but th little girl weeps
she walks to school in her broken shoes
and a tacky dress
she makes her lunch
as her dying mom sleeps
her dad left when she was young
after he murdered his son
she lives a broken life and all th little girl can do is weep

fool without th love

I trusted you with this broken heart of mine
thought you'd make it whole
not destroy it even more
so now i'm scared
surrounded with fear
wishing you could love me
for who and what I am
but i guess I have to carry on
as a fool without th love

dreading th day ahead

her alarm starts to sound
she brings herself to her feet
dreading th day ahead
knowing it'll be another one from hell
she can't find her socks
and her clothes don't match
she hates th life she's living
dragging a comb through her hair
she's running late
why did she get up this morning she thinks to herself
rewinding back time
her alarm starts to sound
she turns it off and goes back to sleep

sheets stained red

crying herself to sleep is where she lay
as she began to fade
no one ever saw her pain
but they notice her now
because of those sheets stained red
he will come get her up for school
to have his world disappear
because now his little girl is dead
in sheets stained red
no one saw her
no one cared
walking on by her dreams went
she wasn't cool enough for th girls
or pretty enough for th boys
but they notice her now
because of those sheets stained red

let th blood drip

The curtains drawn
it's come to an end
he takes a bow
then lets th blood drip
he's always laughed
cracking jokes
full of smiles
the class clown was where he belonged
but behind th laughter there was tears
behind th jokes there was fears
his smiles were lies
he had it all,
but yet he wanted more
so giving up
he let th blood drip

hidden truth

The sun shines bright
but she locks herself away
in th dark she will cry
she feels so much pain
that no one understands
so she just rolls down her sleeves
and hides th memories th scars leave
On th feild he runs around
happily playing with friend
he goes home to his alcoholic dad
where flames burst
and arguements call
then down he falls
where he lays dead
it lyes among us
hidden truth
behind th smiles
people are crying
it's hidden truth
and people are dying
it all lyes among us
it's called hidden truth

people chatter

Sitting outside the office
watching th world spin
all is calm
all is quiet
the phone rings
people chatter
all aloneinside my head
down I fall
people chatter
and walk on by
paying no attention
to th little girl who cries
'cos she's a broken heart
over looked
all alone
inside my head
phones ring
people chatter
she dies

goodbye means forever

sometimes goodbye means forever
and it can tear you apart
especially when promises fall apart
you promised me love
promised you'd care
and promised me forever
where did I go wrong
why don't you care
I'm only second best
But I still fall asleep with you on my mind
and our song in my heart
can't you come back and mend this broken heart
so now that you're gone
and it really is forever
I'm just a lost cause stuck in my head
why does goodbye have to mean forever

miss me now I'm gone

As I sit here crying
I wish I could turn back time
You promised me forever
so why aren't you in my tomorrow
I loved you like no other
and believed you when you told me you cared
but now I know your promises were nothing but lies
as I break down thinking of what we used to share.
I go insane
trying to carry on
but I drown in th memories
and th tears still fall
Why'd you have to leave
and crush my broken heart
but trust me when I say
you'll miss me now I'm gonee

run away with me

If I could
I'd sing a sweet song for you
not because you want onee
not because you asked
but baby because I am in love with youu
so run away with me
into th summers night
make me feel alive
one last timee
but now all I have is dreams
because it's time for me to leave
so run away with me
into th summers night
make me feel alive
one last timee

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I'm not perfect
not th perfect little princess you wish I was
but can't you just accept me for who I am
Flesh and Blood.
but yet you still reject me
make me feel worthless
what do I have to do to make you care
I know I loose my temper
and scream a lot
but deep down my hearts breaking
I try hard to make you proud
but I'm never going to be good enoughh
but Now it's too late
I'm giving up
nothings going to change th things you said
you never understood th pain I felt
now nothing can make things right again

are we really through

It was love at first sight
no one wanted to see us together
but I didn't care
I loved th feeling of security
when I was in your arms
Th feeling of Joy
when your lips touched mine
you weren't perfect
but still I loved you
then it happened.
th thing I dreaded
my phone hit th floor
then fell th tear
it was all over
the joy was gone
and the security disappeared
now when i see you
I hold back a tear
knowing you don't care
you told me i'm beautiful
fine th way I am
do you still mean that
is it still true
are we really through?

don't label me

I may not be perfect
I may not be beautiful
I'm not my sister
I'm not my friendsI'm me and always will be
so don't label me,
now or ever.
I aint no emo
nor a prep for that fact.
I'm no good at rugby
or soccer too
I don't care about my hair
or breaking a nail
I'm simply me
Totally unperfect
but maybe i like it that way
so don't label me,
now or ever.

Killing everything in me

you were everything i wanted
and everything i needed
but yet you killed everything in me
you let go, but i held on
you broke my heart, and i tried to mend it
this is th hardest thing i've ever had to do
and although i love you,
I'm letting go to
'cos i can't hold on when you keep
killing everything in me

Stand Alone

I stand alone desperate to see

as the tears fall from my sky blue eyes

this life I'm living is cruel and full of fear

lack of laughter and smiles are rare

the secrets cut me from th inside out

and th truth is always hidden

the scars the tears and the pain

hide away in th dark

forbidden for all to see

the tune of my heart is missing

and the sparkle in my eye is gone

I'm stuck inside a maze,

forver lost